We don’t change, our experiences change…

Having been out of the UK and away from ‘home’ and my family for 10 months now, I have had time to make the changes in my life that I wanted – and needed – to make.  Although I wasnt sure or clear about what needed to change, I knew change was necessary for me to grow again.  A bit like the butterfly, which I got the chance to learn about in the Amazon jungle leg of my travels in April 2016, it is the egg, larvae and them pupae before the adult butterfly emerges!!  And this is what it feels like for me…

Tiny eggs we wouldn't even notice are the start of a beautiful butterfly...

Tiny eggs we wouldn’t even notice are the start of a beautiful butterfly…

With each day, week or month of meeting new people, seeing new cultures, and learning about how I fit into the world or those individual cultures and countries has shown me what I needed to find.   I have learned about myself, although I thought I’d done most of my self awareness in training as a counsellor and life coach, it seems not!! We never really do stop learning.

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A mini dragon to me this is one butterfly larvae…

I also learned that others don’t look to learn or grow but want to stay the same as they are, in the same place too maybe, whilst others travel to see what it teaches them pethaps.

So what have I learned specifically?  I’ve learned that I can be happy again after a few years/many years of resentment, anger, frustrationand pain for various reasons, I am happy and I think I know why, or how now too!!!   I’ve learned that people are generally good.  This belief was lost in a mire of not too nice people over the ladt few years before I left the UK, and lost self esteem in part from those experiences but also perhaps not ever fully forming that self esteem before?

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A cute but very different larvae

I have learned about people and places, the common and the unique people and places, the shared cultures or beliefs and the impact on individuals.

There are sparkly people in the making or those who blend in, but theyball make a village, town, city and a country – our whole world of those who,stand put, stand up or blend seamlesly into life…

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This is the butterfly species, colour on top and underneath!!

 

 

 

 

A jewel of a larvae -like earrings!! Siny silver and hard they again could be hiding their vulnerable cargo!

A jewel of a larvae -like earrings!! Siny silver and hard they again could be hiding their vulnerable cargo!

We are each unique, meeting and matching, complementuping or complimenting, or clashing at times!But one highlight of learning about this project and the butterfly, that is my logo and underpins my personal and professional concept of personal development, was being allowed to free a butterfly each, up into the Amazonian sunlight, with several children watching who learn on this project, but the adult delight at letting them go and be free to live their lives….

This was like the one I chose to release – on top,of his wings, he was bright blue but alighting to eat the fruit like this, he could blend in to be just another leaf, safe whilst he was vulnerable!